My baby is the most handsome cutest being i have ever known, i love him with all my being and i know to him mommy and daddy are heroes in his eyes and hence the need to seek for ways to provide for him the best life that we can.I just went back to work a few days ago and leaving my baby to go back to work was one of the hardest decisions i have ever had to make in my life.He is one year and two months old now but i have never felt he is old enough to be left with a sitter.I had to look for a sitter for him but every time i was at work i kept worrying alot ,i still do. The first week of going back to work was terrible i couldn’t sit still, i almost wanted to go back home.It took alot of positive talk to my self about the fact that i needed to get out and accept the help from someone else,it took me a while to be able to trust someone else with my baby infact i had detailed instructions that i had written down for the person i first left him with on how to care for him,how to change his diaper,how to feed him,the number of times to feed him,how he likes to sleep,his nap times,what to dress him in and even how he likes to play.I wanted to be as clear as possible on the needs of my baby so that my sitter could not get anything twisted or confused.I realized i am the most paranoid mom i know and i understand that there are alot more who are like me.I missed my baby alot and since i had never been away from him for more than 6 hours like i do now i was afraid i felt that maybe she might not be patient with him as i would be or maybe she wouldn’t take good care of him as i would.Before i settled on the best seater for my baby i fired two of them within three days because i wanted only the best and truly there is no shame in seeking help with kids and other duties while providing for your families.Mothers out there need to hear and accept that without feeling guilty of abandoning their kids as i felt.
My baby is my most precious human and since i started working i take every minute around him preciously.I maximize on the times we spend together a lot and make sure that i take time for just us me and him.Bath times are sacred to us, where i take the longest time playing with him and talking to him, during dinner i ensure that i am the one to feed him so that i am able to bond and laugh with him.Before bed we can watch one of his fun baby rhymes from cocomelon or read a book or just play,this depends on the mood we are in at that moment.
I take holidays and weekends more seriously now, to me the more offdays i get the happier i become cos that means more time to have fun and go out with my son.Lucky for me i got the coolest sitter in the whole world and luckily my husbands small sister is around to be my eye and ear at home.This ensures that my baby is well taken care as that is the biggest priority for me at the moment.
I am happy to work and provide for my family and still be able to give my baby my time.
I know it will get easier with time.I trust that i will get a hold of it sooner.
#beauty in parenting